i started this blog back in november of 2008.
not because i wanted to gain success from it.. heck, i hardly knew what blogging was.
a friend of mine at the time was a blogger and was all, "hey you should start a blog". so i did and here we are.
since then i have been a somewhat regular blogger.. kinda.
i blog when i can. comment when i can.
i have made a few 'internet' friends from doing so. but, let's be honest. most normal people, with normal lives, normal jobs, families and homes and things to do in the 'real world' don't have time to spend or post every waking minute of their lives on blogs, twitter, facebook.. i've never tried to gain 'internet friendships' from doing this.. i've never tried to be in the 'cool internet' group of blogs.
i just don't care.
frankly, twatting all damn day with people i don't even know is just weird to me. it makes me want to scream, "get out of your pajamas. get out of your house. go meet a real friend for lunch!"
tho i adore those very select few 'internet friends' that i associate with regularly, online relationships are just not my main agenda. i have plenty of real life friends that i get to hang out and socialize with in the real world.
so PL&A kinda turned into a fun place to post things i love.. every once in a while, sneaking in a post here and there about my real life.
never once have you read a post by me in regards to blog success, blog followers, blog sponsors..
how can i get more, gain more, there are blogs worse than mine, how can i get more attention, blah blah blah.. cry cry cry.. sniff sniff sniff.
it's because i don't care.. i do not have time to live my life on the internet.
yes, i love followers and comments just like the rest of you.
but i'm not heartbroken when i see i lost a follower. or don't get any comments on a post.
this blog, facebook, twitter does not consume my life.. neither does the amount of unread blogs i have in my reader. which at any given moment, is usually 1000+.
i am jealous of no one's 'blog success' or the amount of 'followers' they have.
obsessing over the amount of 'blog followers' you have it just stupid.
you can't control it.. you don't know these people.
why does it matter?
people will read. or not. probably not.
life will go on.
if people want to give you free shit to give away on your blog, congratulations to you.
but really, it's not the most amazing hearts sparkles and sunshine of life. it's cool if you got free lipgloss, but really if it was that much of a big deal to me, i'll go spend $10 and buy my own. no biggie.
several people emailed me after last night's post asking why i worked so much.
i'm not exactly broke. all my bills are paid. i'm not in debt. i don't have bill collection agencies ringing my phone. {just the state of mississippi trying to collect.. ha!}
i have a very successful career that i gained from the bottom up, that i am very proud of! i do everything myself, pay all my own bills, take care of my two babes and working a lot helps me give them and myself the lifestyle that we want to live.
so, it's because.. i just like spending money.
private school ain't cheap y'all. i've gotten 2 new cars within the last 7 months, that ain't free y'all.
and ain't no one gonna support this clothing, shoes and accessory addiction i have going on.
so work is what i do.
however, several people DID NOT email me to call me out about last nights post for my mention of mrs. bangs, that i pissed off last week. i got many emails and comments with LOL's and i couldn't agree more's and i feel the same way's.. i decided not to publish several of these for the simple fact that i'm not trying to start a blog war here. i didn't call anyone out, name any names. i didn't privately email anyone and tell them who i was referring too.. i can't help it if many many many of you knew who i was talking about.
and you knew because i was not the only one who was rubbed the wrong way by this post..
i'll never forget the first time i received
a phone call that would change my whole world.
i guess i should consider myself lucky to have not received
a phone call like this until i was 24..
but to date, this has been the worst phone call i've ever received.
"sweetie, something very bad has happened.."
my dad's words echoed.
my heart sank.
i burst into tears.
over a year later, my heart still hurts.
i dread the day i receive another phone call like this.
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tell me about a phone call that changed your life.
(good or bad)
no, i am not insensitive to whatever tragedy occurred in her life.. what bugged the shit out of me was the drama of this girl. the fact that she'd take something that was so "devastating" to her and try to flip it for blog comments. when i commented asking what the point of the post was if you were not going to mention what the phone call was about.. she responded with the remark that she didn't want to share it on her blog.
what i find ironic is this was something she felt comfortable enough to share with 600+ twitter followers. fact is, i asked one of my 'in real life' friends about the blog. and before even reading it, she knew exactly who she was referring too. how can you be uncomfortable posting on your personal blog that is there to serve sharing your life but not too uncomfortable for twitter?
no, she was not uncomfortable sharing the details at all.
she posted that blog for non other than attention.
she wanted people to comment and ask why? who? what?
she left left them guessing on purpose to boost her blog stats.
she took something to close and dear to her heart and paraded it around for the internet to see.
wanna know why?
because she's a DRAMA QUEEN.
who in return, try to make me seem like the bad guy. reprimanding me for bringing it up?
uhh, hello.. not like i know the chick.
how did i bring it up?
isn't she the one that blogged about her horrid phone call?
and then blasted for all of twitter?
how else would i know that she was referring to her uncle's suicide.
hypercritical, i say.
what do you think blog world?
call me out if i am in the wrong here.
when you read a post like the above, what do you take from it?
someone not wanting to share all the details of their personal life? or someone that is begging for the attention + blog comments.
so... since i am now the bad guy here..
oh well, spineless as i have been called out on twitter and via email as of late by mrs. bangs lovely old drunken box blonde wanna be famous blog pal.. am i just mean girl? or is it everything you wish you had the balls to say?
"the fact that you don't find me amazing doesn't reflect poorly on me, it just means you have bad taste."
xoxo- mean girl.